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Thursday, March 13, 2008, 6:28 AM
FEELINGS- PISSED OFF.1) It's the rainy season. Oh god, why must it be rainy season now? Why must it spoil my holidays? I mean HELLIDAYS. Mom doesn't let me out because it's raining heavily outside. But actually, I hate going out on rainy days. It just spoil my mood.
2) School's coming. Oh please. I don't want to go to school. I don't even want to step in the class. I don't want to face hatreds,sarcasms & etc etc. I love my classmates,well some, but mostly I hate, err not hate (hate is a strong word), I dislike (slightly better) some of them. But I'll try to be nice and smile to them. Doesnt mean you dislike,you must show bloody goddamn attitude face to them right?
3) I have an OLD/GOODFRIEND. We always spend our time studying, bitching, calling each other. And now it's gone. I'm so glad that you have found a new goodfriend to replace me. Besides, who would want me? I've downgraded. I no longer smoke, i no longer am the bad girl you know. Mixing with me is such a shame to you,right? You'd rather be with all your "cool" friends than me. Go ahead lah with them. I'm no longer in your must-share-secret's list, what.
Pfttt, like as if I care when my friends, i mean ex friends, dump me. I still move on with life what. I still eat,talk, shit & bathe without them what. I still stand on my two feets alone in a cold world (shutup ah you all. I have every bloody right to exaggerate.) I do feel hurt being lonely, with less friends.
You all think I didn't miss my past isit?
I miss taking ciggs as anti-depressants.
I miss going out, coming home at night.
I miss socialising with people around me no matter their age gap.
I miss skipping classes and hanged out at the toilet for a few hours.
I miss finding faults with people around me just to get attention.
I miss shouting so loud across the classroom.
I miss being the noisiest girl in the class tho I WAS the smallest. ( now I grow taller,lei)
YOU ALL THINK I NEVER MISS ISIT? ISIT?
I know you all think I don't want to hang out anymore, but matter fact is that I do still want.
It's just that kau perangai suar lupa member tak nak ajak aku.Ya lor, your cool friends settle your problems what. Not me what.But who lends you a shoulder when you feel down? Who? I hate to bring up and I'm fucking not the bring-up-topic type. That's not me, you get it.
And all of you don't feeling feeling terase uh that it's you. It dedicates for the old time friend. We're close for more than 5 years and pooff, it vanishes.