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Wednesday, February 2, 2011, 7:02 AM
Oh hi there. *Blows dust away*
I've been away for too long, haven't I? Things have been a roller coaster ride. Eversince when the O level results have been announced. Let's just say that I actually qualify for polytechnic but it wasn't really satisfactory and I don't really get the courses that I want. In a way, I feel so fucking dissapointed cos the efforts I put in to get what I want did not show the desired results on a single sheet of paper. It's even more worse that the country we're living in is more interested in a single sheet of paper called certificate. I mean, c'mon, where's the passion? Are we supposed to do deskbound work all the time? It'd be so cliche to just study so hard, get a cert and then work in an office, after that get married and have kids. Is that what life means?
Talking about it, I have too much angst inside me that even by expressing it verbally wouldn't even make my frustrations die down. It must have been my physically challenged job or customers' bratty behaviour towards us, the service providers. Honestly, working in a service line has tested my patience enough that eventually one day, one day, i'd actually blow up cos of people's fucked up attitude. But I shall cool down cos for these few months will be a crucial one for me and I need money to provide for myself without relying on my old folks. I've been financially depending on them for 17 years and it makes me feel guilty even more that they will be sponsoring my private education studies if I don't get into the course that I appealed for.
Although I've never been a good servant of God, I hope He makes things alright for me so that I can clearly see what's ahead of me in the future and return my gratitude to my parents.
Till then,
Phat.